My Perfect Imperfections

Hello there;

I thought I would jump on this old tag and open up to you guys a little. Obviously you hardly know me, even from my Ask Siân Marie post it still doesn't show the real me. Id say only a few people other than my family will ever know me 100%. 

My bestie Charlotte Rose, did this tag and I found it quite inspiring and wanted to give it ago myself. It has took me a while to actually do this post because I have had to think hard what my 3 "imperfections" are and what my 3 "perfections" are.

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Imperfections

1. How I talk.

I suppose from what I put into my posts, you have imagined how I speak? I know I do it with other peoples blogs. Well from what you think and how I am is probably a million miles away. I have a stutter that comes out when I am either excited or stressed/nervous. It drives me insane not being able to get my words out. And if someone is to take the piss out of me about it. Be prepared for backlash. I HATE it. I am fully aware I have took 2 minutes of your time to say scissors, I do NOT need reminding about it. 

And finally I have a lisp. Yep, I wasn't at the front of the queue when they gave our voices. A lot people find it cute and endearing. I find it the complete opposite. Granted I don't often hear it in myself, but again its when people pick up on it. Urgh no, hate it. 

Also what mean sod put a S in lisp, when we can't pronounce it. Cruel cruel person.

2. My weight

I used to be as skinny as they came, 6 pack was fit as a fiddle. Then I hit 16 - 17? And my high metabolism stopped. 

Now don't get me wrong, I am not massive. Probably the average UK size really. But when you were so used to fitting in size 6-8 clothes being double that is just awful. I am trying to get myself back into check. I personally don't want to go back down to a size 6. But I want to be healthier and slightly skinnier than I am now. 

If you read my New Years Resolution post, you will know that it was one of my resolutions. And I can reports that since I started eating better (I actually started mid December), I have lost half a stone. I know its not loads, but knowing I have made half a stone I am SO proud of myself. I just need to shift the rest.

R.I.P Pizza.

3. I don't make plans

This is not a physical thing. But I am rubbish at making plans. I am never the one to text someone and say "you free on Thursday? Wanna do something?". Nope I always wait for plans to be made for me and I will let said person know if I can make it or not. 

I like my own company, as I type this I should be at a party but I decided to stay in and have a night to myself instead. Its not that I am antisocial. I love a good party. I just have to be in the right frame of mind or I will sit there, being mardy and hating every second. And nobody needs that at their party do they?

Perfections

1. Planning my life.

A slight contradiction to above. But I do have my life planned out in my head. Now it may not go how I want it to. Like my original plan was to be married with a baby by the time I was 25. Well I am 25 in July. And I not pregnant and not even engaged. So I have now moved that to 30, maybe I will have more success with that one. 

2. Confident

When I was younger I was so shy, to the point that if I saw a school friend in town I would look to the floor and pretend I wasn't even there. Speaking in front of the class would terrify me. (Not good for my stutter).

But when I started working I HAD to talk to people, I was around strangers all day everyday when I was there. This helped me find my voice and to stand my ground. I have had a fair few arguments while at work and I do not back down now when I know I am right. Also I don't think twice when talking to a crowd. I do get that little bubble of adrenaline but I am not scared.

I had to ask my boyfriend about my perfections and this is a snippet of the text I got "You are confident and your personality shines through in a crowd". How lovely is it to think someone thinks of you that way.

3. I love

I am the most loyal person when I love you. If you are family, my boyfriend or a friend. If I love you, I love you good. 

If you are down, I will try my best to pick you up again. If you are scared, I will hold your hand through them times. If you want to just talk, I won't tell no one else. 

It is something I pride myself on. I am a fantastic friend and one hell of a girlfriend. 

This was a lot harder than I thought it would be. Well the imperfections were easy, it is so easy to see the worst in yourself. But I really struggled when it came to my perfections. I literally couldn't think of a single one. 

Now I am not going to tag anyone in this, I want people to do this at their own free will.

Sian

xo