Thursday, 22 September 2016

One Year Later; the bad and the oh so magical....

Hello, hi, bonjour? Is anyone there?! Feels a little strange writing this as I haven’t done this in over a year. First of all I want to say thank you to the people who maybe checked back on this little website to see if I did post anything. Sorry to disappoint you every time you clicked on, maybe this post will be a nice surprise?! But I wasn’t feeling it, I wasn’t feeling life in general. A lot happened in the last year break ups, make ups, holidays, nights out, strange memories, tinder and finding the most incredible person ever.

It has been a roller coaster of a year and that is putting it simply. From leaving my ex of whom I was with nearly 6 years, I moved back home. As you can imagine I was in no right head space to talk about a blusher or a monthly favourites. I needed to get myself sorted. I had a bit of a whirlwind romance over Christmas, but this led to heart break. Now thinking back onto this time, I am not sure if it was heart break from this person, due to how fast I went into this whirlwind, or if in fact I was finally grieving for my previous break up. Either way, I have no bitter feelings for either of them, I wish you both happy lives!

So after what just over 6 years of not really being on my own. I was suddenly 26 and single. And oh boy how the world had changed. I no longer knew how to flirt, how to engage with the opposite sex nor did I really want to for a couple of months. I had a good 6 weeks of just being Sian, now I can't stress enough how much this time is needed after any break up. I cried, I laughed with my best friend, Charli. She was my entire rock throughout the year. I would have been totally lost without her. We planned a holiday to Tenerife. I lost over a stone in weight. I finally started to feel myself again. I was going out with a couple of girls from work Paige and Nat, I owe a lot to them as they shown me a good time every Saturday. Sundays sucked, waking up and feeling like death was incoming. Then Tinder happened.....

If you are unaware of what Tinder is, WELL my little Internet buddy, its basically an on line meat market, you swipe left if you don't like them and then right if you do. If you like each other you can match and talk. Its fun, its a confident booster and oh boy I had so much fun on it. At first it is VERY scary and I will save my Tinder memories for a separate post as it deserves one all on its own. But to end this post on a high, let me tell you a little story.

I remember being sat in on a Friday night after my normal Saturday night prep of fake tanning all evening, doing the norm of drying and swiping through Tinder. I was starting to get a little bored of it, I was gonna give it a few more days before I gave up. When all of a sudden someone 8km was on my radar JonJon.... first thoughts were unusual name obviously a nickname but he was close by and oh my he was good looking. So naturally I swiped YES to him and thought id never match with him. Saturday morning came around, off to work I went, started my shift and a buzz on my phone. "New Tinder match". It was JonJon. I remember, like it was yesterday, I said to Barbara (my colleague) "I need to do this one right". He was the first to message me, I still can feel the butterflies. We spoke all day exchanging little messages, swapping social media links and getting each others number. He was sweet, funny and could handle whatever I threw at him. I knew I was starting to like what I knew so far.

Work came to an end, I rushed home to start getting ready. Us girls where having a night down Chesterfield for a change of scenery. Yes I was still talking to him over text. I couldn't not reply, it felt wrong to not reply. Sadly the night down Chesterfield wasn't the best night, so we all agreed to head home back to Mansfield to carry the night out. But I had other plans, I knew I needed to meet JonJon, so we agreed for him to pick me up when I got back to Mansfield. Now kids, this is something I would never have done sober. First day of talking to someone and already meeting them.... I don't advise it, but a lot of people knew who I was going to be with and I was to let them know I was going to be okay. So at around Midnight on 11th June, I got in his car and the rest is literally history. We clicked, we just got on like a house on fire. Since that day we have spent nearly every day together. We've been away to Whitby, planned more trips and I am simply having the time of my life. I have never felt like this, I know its such a cliche to say, but I know he is the one. We share the same views on life, hes made me feel whole again, Jon Rogerson, you are my world. Thank you.

So there you have it guys, a little round up of my life over the past year. Sorry this post is a little wordy, but I needed to get things off my chest I suppose. I'm looking forward to getting back into the swing of things and my beauty posts will be coming back into action slowly but surely. So look out for them. I'm excited for life again and I 100% want my blog to be a part of that again.

Until next time,


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